WHO AM I........

AND WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MY FORMER SELF?????

OK, so some background as most of you have only known me thru blogland for the last few months......

I used to be a pretty big hot head... I DID sweat the small stuff, no matter how hard I tried to do otherwise. :o(

I cussed like a sailor, not one that was out at sea for months mind you, but one close to home that loved a good cuss word.... I LOVED blowing off steam by using my entire repertoire.

Then 4 years ago, I attended an Emmaus weekend at my church.... To say that weekend changed my life would be a big understatement..... After that weekend I stopped cussing, then and there, and I became a much calmer and less hot headed gal. I stopped on the sweating the small stuff mentality. I just decided to 'let go and let God' and wow what a difference that has made in my everyday life.....

OK, so on to today, and wondering where the OLD me is.....

Last night there was a knock on my door.... It wasn't late but it WAS dark so I got a little nervous. When I opened the door, there stood a condo neighbor of mine. A lovely late 20ish gal that I only know enough to wave to or shout hi to on garbage day when we are putting out our trash.

The poor thing was visibly upset and she said that she had just hit the car sitting behind my condo (my parents car). I told her that we could go look at it but that it was no big deal (former self would have been FUMING). I told her I should have moved it after I brought mom home from her doc appointment but just was lazy so the accident was as much my fault as hers (former self would have accepted NONE of the blame).

She was visibly shaken and actually shaking when I looked at the damage. Again, it was dark and in the dark it didn't seem too bad. I told her not to worry about it, just get me her insurance info and we would go from there..... She offered to go get it then and I told her that within the next day or so was soon enuf......(former self would have followed her into her condo to get that info ASAP).

I once again told her not to worry, it wasn't that bad and that if THAT was the worst thing that happened to me all week, I would be THRILLED!!!! I am not sure what she thought of me or my not so normal reactions... Maybe she thought I was hitting the sauce (which I was not), or that I was just a crazy old lady  (jury is still out on the crazy part). But either way, I was calm and felt fine with the whole situation.

I then called my brother to tell him and he agreed that if the damage wasn't too bad, to just let it slide..... the car is paid off, it is several years old, and since mom can't see much, she will never even NOTICE the damage.....

So here is a picture of the damage... what do you think???? Let it slide??? That of course is my choice but I am interested to hear what all of you would do.....

Damage to mom's car!!!!

 Anyway, I have decided I like this new me..... I am glad that old grumpy, hot headed, cussing gal is gone....oh believe me .... small glimpses of her still peak around corners but I can usually push her back where she came from and relax into the calm.......

Hoping this day finds you relaxing in the calm too......

Until next time....